It's not the feeling when you were a little kid and had to wear hand-me-down dress from your sister, while she got a new, shiny one.

It's not the feeling when you saw your first crush accepted a love letter from your enemy.

It's not the feeling when your classmate's work ranked first, yours was second, (though you thought that yours was undervalued and deserved better.)

It's not the feeling when you saw your friends' Instagram posts of them traveling abroad while you were stuck here with a pile of work.

It's not the feeling when you receive a news about your favorite idol getting married.

And it's not the feeling when you saw many people around you live their lives to the full extent. At the same time, you have absolutely no idea where your live will go from this point.

You keep wondering.