I'm sitting here with your ghost 
Trying to find our love again, the love before we lost.
The love before we hurt us.
How can we love us 
When we hurt us.
How can we believe we love us
When we hurt us.

I'm re-reading our old conversations 
Trying to find our love again, the love before our separation. 
The love before you hurt me.
How can you love me
When you hurt me.
How can I believe you love me 
When you hurt me.

I'm staying up all night 
Trying to find our love again, the love before when you hold me so tight. 
The love before I hurt you.
How can I love you 
When I hurt you.
How can you believe I love you
When I hurt you.

The love before I hate you.
How can I love you
When I hate you.
How can I believe you love me
When you hate me.

To Dear J