What's the worst feeling one could possibly have?
Is it guilt? or is it boredom? anger? depression? loneliness?
Well, for me, it's probably emptiness.
Imagine feeling unhappy but you have no idea how to make yourself happy. You don't react to those scrumptious dishes on your instagram feed. You don't react to a sad scene in a movie. You don't react to video games. You don't react to anything.
You are as unfeeling and indifferent as ever, and you think you hate it. But no matter how much you hate yourself, you still feel empty. Sometimes you wish you can be angry at yourself when you are like this, but there's nothing in you but emptiness.
It's not the kind of emptiness ready to be filled. Rather, it feels more like a void. It's the empty nothing.
When you are hungry, you eat, and everything is fine, at least for a moment. You are often able to tone down your anger once you scream it out, at the top of your lungs, muffling out your rage against your poor pillow. You might feel lonely, but the temporary cure to it is everywhere.
But if you feel empty.
You can't fill it with anything.
You can't feel less empty because of anything or anyone.
It's empty, and that's all.