Have you ever thought

that you know your life you know your future
and you think you can direct it , manage it , control it

until one day you find out that's not true
but really fucked up
you can't control or even deal with your own feeling
your hurt , your pain

then you might think only god knows
and that sucks …


then you lit up the cigarette in your hand
inhale and blow the smoke into the air
as if your bad feelings will blow away
and gone with the wind
as same as the smoke…


but it's not actually

those feelings just stuck and hiding in your mind for a while
but finally absorbed into your soul and won’t go anywhere.